there're things i can do to make things worse. I did them all in one go.
bad Samuel. bad Sammy Samuel.
SATURDAY: woke up early today for the ubin trail with Man Fai. had the best nasi Lemak for breakfast (it's at Changi Village. go try), rushed for the boat, rode to Ubin, got on the tour in the nick of time. it was a really good trail. photos taken don't show how cool it was. it was cool cuz of the smells, and we got to taste leaves, some with a shockingly bad aftertaste *bleah* =p then, had lunch on the island, then left the island, took a long bus trip down to Bugis, chatting all the way... went to Bugis Junction and realised Tekken 5 has been released (yay.), went to Bras Basah, then Raffles City Centre basement to "see-food", then upstairs to see a hotel spa, then... haiz... after that, as we took the train to holland v, things got super messed-up.
what can i do? he changed. he's like... Darren. NNNNNOOOOO! what have I done?? God have mercy on us. Darren. Man Fai. Marcus. Samuel.
bad Samuel. bad Sammy Samuel.
SATURDAY: woke up early today for the ubin trail with Man Fai. had the best nasi Lemak for breakfast (it's at Changi Village. go try), rushed for the boat, rode to Ubin, got on the tour in the nick of time. it was a really good trail. photos taken don't show how cool it was. it was cool cuz of the smells, and we got to taste leaves, some with a shockingly bad aftertaste *bleah* =p then, had lunch on the island, then left the island, took a long bus trip down to Bugis, chatting all the way... went to Bugis Junction and realised Tekken 5 has been released (yay.), went to Bras Basah, then Raffles City Centre basement to "see-food", then upstairs to see a hotel spa, then... haiz... after that, as we took the train to holland v, things got super messed-up.
what can i do? he changed. he's like... Darren. NNNNNOOOOO! what have I done?? God have mercy on us. Darren. Man Fai. Marcus. Samuel.
SamWise2000 [3/26/2005 07:32:00 AM]
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boo! never knew my Dad would carry around such a cool green shirt.
SamWise2000 [3/25/2005 08:45:00 AM]
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Bakerzin's autumn collection. Heaven would taste something like this =p
SamWise2000 [3/25/2005 08:44:00 AM]
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? in a green shirt
FRIDAY: Good Friday! went for morning service, which, in knowledge sense, was a real wake up call... about how we should emulate what Jesus was. had a really good speaker. then, rushed down, had lunch myself at clementi, then met Darren at Orchard MRT, to pass the tickets.
good thing i slept b4 i met him. cuz in my drowsy state, i didn't bother to mentally condemn Darren. so, ya, met him, did the deed, then i left. he msged, "you look good". haha. then, took train to work. took many cool funky pics at the train station. really too bad i can't find the cable to upload the files =p
work would've been good... if only i didn't break down. yup. first time man. didn't even happen when i studied =p well, since it's all over already, i don't recall much, but as i was working from 2-10pm... my blood was starting to boil gradually... was mentally complaining about the partners incompetence, which YES, is wrong. but i couldn't help it. was really fed up with how much they made the job harder, especially with how they cleared the food and drinks. so it accumlated. furthurmore, i made mistakes, got chided by not 1, but 2 partners... for making different mistakes... "yes, i tend to be inefficient, but you are equally messed up. the only dif is that i can be fired for it, and you can't". that's what was going through my mind, which, when i look back, is so TOTALLY wrong. anyway, being chided in front of the partners, carrying the pressure of being labelled the "staff that always screws up"... got to me. i was really angry, so in order to avoid an outburst, i avoided contact with staff. but i guess my emtions still showed. in the end, they insisted i left right that moment, at 10pm, to rest. that time, i felt really mad, cuz i felt they didn't trust that i could take it... but, hey, who am i kidding? i really couldn't take it.
whatever's happening in survivor is just sad sad sad. but i'm rooting for stephenie and Bobby Jon. especially bobby jon.
still got a long day tomorrow. goign to Ubin at 9am, and there's work. sheesh. how am i gonna face the partners for work? just avoid eye contact the rest of my working life there? impossible -_- i'll get over it. hope they forgive.
today had a good start, a bad end. *sigh*
FRIDAY: Good Friday! went for morning service, which, in knowledge sense, was a real wake up call... about how we should emulate what Jesus was. had a really good speaker. then, rushed down, had lunch myself at clementi, then met Darren at Orchard MRT, to pass the tickets.
good thing i slept b4 i met him. cuz in my drowsy state, i didn't bother to mentally condemn Darren. so, ya, met him, did the deed, then i left. he msged, "you look good". haha. then, took train to work. took many cool funky pics at the train station. really too bad i can't find the cable to upload the files =p
work would've been good... if only i didn't break down. yup. first time man. didn't even happen when i studied =p well, since it's all over already, i don't recall much, but as i was working from 2-10pm... my blood was starting to boil gradually... was mentally complaining about the partners incompetence, which YES, is wrong. but i couldn't help it. was really fed up with how much they made the job harder, especially with how they cleared the food and drinks. so it accumlated. furthurmore, i made mistakes, got chided by not 1, but 2 partners... for making different mistakes... "yes, i tend to be inefficient, but you are equally messed up. the only dif is that i can be fired for it, and you can't". that's what was going through my mind, which, when i look back, is so TOTALLY wrong. anyway, being chided in front of the partners, carrying the pressure of being labelled the "staff that always screws up"... got to me. i was really angry, so in order to avoid an outburst, i avoided contact with staff. but i guess my emtions still showed. in the end, they insisted i left right that moment, at 10pm, to rest. that time, i felt really mad, cuz i felt they didn't trust that i could take it... but, hey, who am i kidding? i really couldn't take it.
whatever's happening in survivor is just sad sad sad. but i'm rooting for stephenie and Bobby Jon. especially bobby jon.
still got a long day tomorrow. goign to Ubin at 9am, and there's work. sheesh. how am i gonna face the partners for work? just avoid eye contact the rest of my working life there? impossible -_- i'll get over it. hope they forgive.
today had a good start, a bad end. *sigh*
SamWise2000 [3/25/2005 07:27:00 AM]
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the inevitable... is inevitable!
should i invest in a pair of boxers from Giodarno? =)
did many many cool things today. but it all got got cancelled off but the "un-cool" way i ended the day =(
THURSDAY: took my OFF DAY. Yes. O-F-F D-A-Y. it's really amazing how much can be accompolished in a day. thanks to Man Fai =D had dental at 11pm, walked around Raffles City Centre (the basement is an amazing place! so much good food!), then met MF for lunch at 12pm, where we started at THE BATTER PLACE for crepes, BAKERZIN for their autumn cake collection, then FUZZY BILLIES for their toasts. so much good food! i have the pictures to prove how good they look. but they taste better! too bad i can't get the pics uploaded yet. can't find the cable =p yeah, got to meet MF after so long. had a good chat. i was acting strange again. gotta stop that.
then, went to settlers north canal, waited for Bryan, learnt some ultra cool new games, got to teach WanSi games (which was fun. she's fun). Bryan came with Kevin, we played Citadels, i went to see his "dojo", then left for a shark's fin dinner at that nearby restaurant that sells shark's fin dinner sets for $4.90. can u believe it?? 4.90!! but eating it alone wasn't very fun.
came home early (big wow for me, probably the first time in ages). cooked crepes. turned out far worse than the ones i made at Clem's house. but it's a learning step for me. the ice cream got rid of the strange aftertaste. seen so many crepe shops today... i seriously think that if i work hard enough, i can make crepes of their standard.
had a brief chat with Mr B. then, after a chat with Mr D...
FREAK YOU! I Don't unDerstand you! i Don't Deal with Double Dealing liars! Doubt-inDucing, spiritually Damaging... a suDDen sweet exterior? harD to believe. I'm being useD!
yet, Jesus, on good friday, died for such, that they may be free from the bondage of sin. i shouldn't condemn the enslaved, but seek to SET THEM FREE! that's what love is. very contrary to how i treated my mom tonight (got peeved over a simple issue). looking back at all these, i realise that there's really no point in being so emotional (just like how there's no point in pouring your heart out into a blog which no one practically reads =p some online journal. but that's another story).
Final Mission (as suggested by Hannah, ignored for some time now): Seek God first. My God should be God, not my blog.
should i invest in a pair of boxers from Giodarno? =)
did many many cool things today. but it all got got cancelled off but the "un-cool" way i ended the day =(
THURSDAY: took my OFF DAY. Yes. O-F-F D-A-Y. it's really amazing how much can be accompolished in a day. thanks to Man Fai =D had dental at 11pm, walked around Raffles City Centre (the basement is an amazing place! so much good food!), then met MF for lunch at 12pm, where we started at THE BATTER PLACE for crepes, BAKERZIN for their autumn cake collection, then FUZZY BILLIES for their toasts. so much good food! i have the pictures to prove how good they look. but they taste better! too bad i can't get the pics uploaded yet. can't find the cable =p yeah, got to meet MF after so long. had a good chat. i was acting strange again. gotta stop that.
then, went to settlers north canal, waited for Bryan, learnt some ultra cool new games, got to teach WanSi games (which was fun. she's fun). Bryan came with Kevin, we played Citadels, i went to see his "dojo", then left for a shark's fin dinner at that nearby restaurant that sells shark's fin dinner sets for $4.90. can u believe it?? 4.90!! but eating it alone wasn't very fun.
came home early (big wow for me, probably the first time in ages). cooked crepes. turned out far worse than the ones i made at Clem's house. but it's a learning step for me. the ice cream got rid of the strange aftertaste. seen so many crepe shops today... i seriously think that if i work hard enough, i can make crepes of their standard.
had a brief chat with Mr B. then, after a chat with Mr D...
FREAK YOU! I Don't unDerstand you! i Don't Deal with Double Dealing liars! Doubt-inDucing, spiritually Damaging... a suDDen sweet exterior? harD to believe. I'm being useD!
yet, Jesus, on good friday, died for such, that they may be free from the bondage of sin. i shouldn't condemn the enslaved, but seek to SET THEM FREE! that's what love is. very contrary to how i treated my mom tonight (got peeved over a simple issue). looking back at all these, i realise that there's really no point in being so emotional (just like how there's no point in pouring your heart out into a blog which no one practically reads =p some online journal. but that's another story).
Final Mission (as suggested by Hannah, ignored for some time now): Seek God first. My God should be God, not my blog.
SamWise2000 [3/24/2005 09:41:00 AM]
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When you feel strange
it's a song.
but i AM feeling strange now. filled with blue rose syrup. *bleah*. and all i felt like doing all day was to eat, and eat, and eat... i'm hungry.
WEDNESDAY: woke up... just in time for work. that means 10am. this was the first time i SLACKED, SLACKED, SLACKED at settlers. just sat on the table, writing notes... it's the first time it happened. i guess it's cuz i had no new games to learn. even had time to go out and buy gelato. well, things got interesting only when XinAi came. ya. by then, it was 7-8pm, and i left for...
AMERICAN IDOL!!! caught it right on time! who wowed me tonight? Carrie, Nadia, Nikko and Vonzell. Jessica and Constatine picked really cool songs! I'm waiting for Mikilah to WOW me... i really hope she'll make it the next round. like, who else who america kick out? Scott? Anthony? still love Carrie =)
after a super exciting episode of AMI... watching the amazing race has no kick =p anywayz, the teams are being super childish about Rob & Amber. silly boyfriends.
I'm not sheltered! I just felt like saying that.
it's a song.
but i AM feeling strange now. filled with blue rose syrup. *bleah*. and all i felt like doing all day was to eat, and eat, and eat... i'm hungry.
WEDNESDAY: woke up... just in time for work. that means 10am. this was the first time i SLACKED, SLACKED, SLACKED at settlers. just sat on the table, writing notes... it's the first time it happened. i guess it's cuz i had no new games to learn. even had time to go out and buy gelato. well, things got interesting only when XinAi came. ya. by then, it was 7-8pm, and i left for...
AMERICAN IDOL!!! caught it right on time! who wowed me tonight? Carrie, Nadia, Nikko and Vonzell. Jessica and Constatine picked really cool songs! I'm waiting for Mikilah to WOW me... i really hope she'll make it the next round. like, who else who america kick out? Scott? Anthony? still love Carrie =)
after a super exciting episode of AMI... watching the amazing race has no kick =p anywayz, the teams are being super childish about Rob & Amber. silly boyfriends.
I'm not sheltered! I just felt like saying that.
SamWise2000 [3/23/2005 06:03:00 AM]
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1st time I'm actually Tired of work =p
yup... can't believe that i'm actually tired of work. gonna ask for an off-day this thursday, so that i can hang out with Man Fai and Bryan Chua.
well, today, TUESDAY... was the worse day i could decide to wear formal clothes to work =p walking in court shoes up and down... washing dishes while fearing for my shirt... it was terrible. and i messed up real bad, cuz i made customers wait for their food for an hour. *gosh!* anywayz, Fizah came to visit... to collect the 3 day old bouquet. haha... still can't believe the "babyish" impression she has of me. i'd definitely like to have an overnight gaming night with her and some other staff b4 going for NS. she's been... an amazingly sweet friend. too bad we didn't game... there was a crowd at the cafe, which is normally a GREAT, FANTASTIC thing, except i was left with the dirty work =p i mean, it SHOULD be the case... washing up, making drinks... like, i should be ready to be treated as a SERVANT, right? I can't always be teaching games. anyway, lesson learnt: REST! so, like, today's the first night i came home REALLY tired.
chatted with Brian tonight. yay. but... the day will come... it'll come... he won't know what i'm talking about... but i do... it'll come...
yup... can't believe that i'm actually tired of work. gonna ask for an off-day this thursday, so that i can hang out with Man Fai and Bryan Chua.
well, today, TUESDAY... was the worse day i could decide to wear formal clothes to work =p walking in court shoes up and down... washing dishes while fearing for my shirt... it was terrible. and i messed up real bad, cuz i made customers wait for their food for an hour. *gosh!* anywayz, Fizah came to visit... to collect the 3 day old bouquet. haha... still can't believe the "babyish" impression she has of me. i'd definitely like to have an overnight gaming night with her and some other staff b4 going for NS. she's been... an amazingly sweet friend. too bad we didn't game... there was a crowd at the cafe, which is normally a GREAT, FANTASTIC thing, except i was left with the dirty work =p i mean, it SHOULD be the case... washing up, making drinks... like, i should be ready to be treated as a SERVANT, right? I can't always be teaching games. anyway, lesson learnt: REST! so, like, today's the first night i came home REALLY tired.
chatted with Brian tonight. yay. but... the day will come... it'll come... he won't know what i'm talking about... but i do... it'll come...
SamWise2000 [3/22/2005 07:46:00 AM]
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I'd make a good coporate drone, aka mindless zombie
it's like... i manage through work without getting bored, and doing things in a rather mindless fashion. which is wrong. must do things for God's purpose, not just for the sake of "going with the flow". that'll probably mean that it'll happent ome in NS... i'll just lead a life of following and following, without much free will.
like, very very few things happened today... i remember sms conversations with Man Fai (our 11th annniversary is tmrw, tuesday, 22nd March)... chatting with Brian (looks like i've stopped talkin' to those guys, except Brian. in fact, i chat with anyone else -_- we've been having meaningful conversations, and besides... don't think i'm ready to contact more "guys")... had work, ended up being the "guinea pig" and drank 3 cups of coffee (how to sleep tonight??!??! =p). yeah, work was good today. 12pm to 9pm. no customers =p just some shopping at carrefour, and settin of drinks counter. now we offer 99% of our drinks. yay =)
after reading Hannah Loh's PSS letter, i realise that there're so many thigns i can be doing...
1. read books daily. therefore, i shall continue readin "time for truth".
2. read and listen to "romans" daily.
3. EXERCISE! i haven't been exercising for so long that my knees are starting to hurt
4. contact the DG. you have the time. it's your God-entrusted ministry. nuture these young ones to love God!
well, good night.
it's like... i manage through work without getting bored, and doing things in a rather mindless fashion. which is wrong. must do things for God's purpose, not just for the sake of "going with the flow". that'll probably mean that it'll happent ome in NS... i'll just lead a life of following and following, without much free will.
like, very very few things happened today... i remember sms conversations with Man Fai (our 11th annniversary is tmrw, tuesday, 22nd March)... chatting with Brian (looks like i've stopped talkin' to those guys, except Brian. in fact, i chat with anyone else -_- we've been having meaningful conversations, and besides... don't think i'm ready to contact more "guys")... had work, ended up being the "guinea pig" and drank 3 cups of coffee (how to sleep tonight??!??! =p). yeah, work was good today. 12pm to 9pm. no customers =p just some shopping at carrefour, and settin of drinks counter. now we offer 99% of our drinks. yay =)
after reading Hannah Loh's PSS letter, i realise that there're so many thigns i can be doing...
1. read books daily. therefore, i shall continue readin "time for truth".
2. read and listen to "romans" daily.
3. EXERCISE! i haven't been exercising for so long that my knees are starting to hurt
4. contact the DG. you have the time. it's your God-entrusted ministry. nuture these young ones to love God!
well, good night.
SamWise2000 [3/21/2005 06:57:00 AM]
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popped. pooped.
gonna try something different today. for once, i'm gonna tell myself, as i start the day, that i'm do not live a defeated live, "for we're more than conquerors...", "there's gotta be more to life"...
SUNDAY: i was terribly tired of church -_- like, i met people, didn't feel at peace at all. the reason is obvious: i've been runnning away from God. it's about time i stopped. like, i slept in service during pastor tim's sermon. probably been sleeping during sermon for the past 2 months. bad... then, had an "interesting lunch" with Samuel, Jason and Fredric. then went to work at settlers holland v.
it was a really good day there. but i can't say that i've been the best example there. but it really was an interesting day at work.
as i said... hmmmm... i realy wonder how i've been spending my mornings b4 working. slacking? in a meaningless way? things are gonna change today. gonan trust God in that.
gonna try something different today. for once, i'm gonna tell myself, as i start the day, that i'm do not live a defeated live, "for we're more than conquerors...", "there's gotta be more to life"...
SUNDAY: i was terribly tired of church -_- like, i met people, didn't feel at peace at all. the reason is obvious: i've been runnning away from God. it's about time i stopped. like, i slept in service during pastor tim's sermon. probably been sleeping during sermon for the past 2 months. bad... then, had an "interesting lunch" with Samuel, Jason and Fredric. then went to work at settlers holland v.
it was a really good day there. but i can't say that i've been the best example there. but it really was an interesting day at work.
as i said... hmmmm... i realy wonder how i've been spending my mornings b4 working. slacking? in a meaningless way? things are gonna change today. gonan trust God in that.
SamWise2000 [3/20/2005 06:22:00 PM]
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