need I really tell what happened the other days of the week?? Haiz... my life has been going down the drain. But Hannah did say (and I thank God for that! :D), that I shouldn't be surprised that such things are hapening, since they have been promised in the Bible. So true! How could let such ungodly thoughts enter my mind? God, I should put all my trust in you!
Yeah, it HAS been bad, but I believe today really would help make a difference. We had Bible Study, and yeah... hmmmm... I didn't feel as fulfilled, but I guess through that, God wants me to learn more =D well, Dorothy went. Hannah and Jess think we're a couple =p ha ha ha. Hannah (previous one's Hannah Loh, now Hannah Metcalf) got me a postcard. it's about time i wrote back. *sigh* feel I haven't been talking enough to Dora, to Callis, to SL... miss them! we had truly fun times together, which I'm not having anymore =(. well, it's about time we've got a meeting, after the promos kay? ;)
The events of 16th, 17th August 2003, a weekend I don't want to forget...
I had a GP test that Saturday morning, but I was late by half and hour, coz I forgot my wallet. GP test went surprisingly better than I expected (only through God's strength!). I had parent-teacher meeting after that. As expected, there were squabbles between mom and I, but I DID gain something. Carl Ng said that I'm not performing to my fullest potential, that I am 'one of his brightest students' in class. Wow. motivating eh? ;)
After all that and a rushed lunch at home, there was MTM (Ministry Team Meeting). It was short, since very few people were there, but it was really meaningful, because it was about how, as a loving authentic biblical community, we should all be more open to newcomers. I had a few chances to practise that (and hopefully would continue to). I'll talk about it later.
Dawn, John andn I then went for the hillsongs concert (run by New Ceation, unfortunately. Are they blind??). To cut a really long story short, our food got confiscated (we went through the concert starving =(), at some points we enjoyed ourselves, like when we heard our favourite songs (but that doesn't make it worship already =(), we had to battle very inconsiderate crowds (aren't we a community of love? =p). Happened to see Chris Tum ( I miss RI guys already =() and Joel (no surprise, I guess)
After that, we had supper (Joel, Dawn, John, Hazal) at S11 besides the national library. We ended really late, so I convinced everyone concerned to sleepover at Joel's place (brought back so many good yet some bad memories. miss that place =p). We talked quite a bit on the bus before we got there. I was treated by the usually great hospitality of his mom =D tang yuan... mmmmmm... well, I 'tried' to prepare DG time, surfed the net a little, then slept at 2am. WHen I woke up, I felt this rare urge to write him a letter, just to show my appreciation for all he's done all this while. I'm still wondering how he feels about it =p. I felt like I had the greatest time of my life there, because it was a good break from the 'oppression' I face at home.
So I left his place for church, practically staring at the DG booklet the whole trip. The trip was surprisingly long. I reached church at 10am. After DG time (where I emphasised on a lesson I realised I didn't really understand myself- I myself learnt a lot about worshipping God with ALL my life), we (Clement, John) went to watch LXG.
Oh. before that, there were two instances of me encountering chances to open up to newcomers. One was when I met Yue Jia, another was when Clarence was looking for Wei-En *Sigh* shows that i must slowly grow in love.
LXG was AWESOME! Really put my life into the right perspective. I MUST do something about Clement's inferiority complex =p Well, this great weekend came to an end when I stepped into the house. *sigh* I hope that there's still a way for me not to loose focus on opening myself up to those around me who need to know God's love, to find my future brothers/sisters in Christ! :D
Oh Yar. Today, something freaky about me struck me =p Sooner or later, I realised that it ties in with my unconcious search for a close friend. Joel and Hannah, you guys seem to be one of the closest. Thanks! =D Yeah, it explains my weird reactions towards Tian Yi (TY) and Yeong Choun (YC), names that should be familiar with those who follow my blogging. Oh well, the search continues for a close friend IN JJC, is that too hard to ask for, God? =p that close friend... *sigh* my social/friend situation is now in shambles, and that makes ya miss RI/JI a lot =p
