I'm SICK and TIRED of ****
hypocrites.
erm, went to settlers yesterday, 5pm-1am. worked, kinda feel bad for slacking. i realised that i seriously need to buck up on my game hosting skills. maybe my life would be easier if i confined myself to the holding area, making drinks and washing all the dishes. got a starting VS deck =) it's fun, but i'm not going to take the game too seriously. it would mean costing lots of money to buy new cards.
i've seen people write utter rubbish on their blogs. perhaps i'm no different. -_-
SamWise2000 [2/11/2005 04:38:00 PM]
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God, Light the Fire again!
it was nice to see YouWei's Blog, to see how he has made such good friends within his platoon. hopefully that'll be the case for myself too. can't wish for much. see who God throws to me.
I'm very thankful to God for the Settlers job. it's like giving me a whole new ministry =) if not for the job, i wouldn't be interested in sharing the gospel to collegues.
today, stayed at home, did nothing much, nothing productive. stayed at settlers from 2pm to 9pm. played "acquire" and "mystery of the Abbey". "acquire" is SUPER FUN :) it was fun playing with other ppl, psycho-ing each other and all. talked to evonne a lto today, whcih is a good thing. we're sooo super open with each other, can share our pains and sorrows, such is the bond of christ that pulls all believers together, "for we are all members of the same body of believers".
Anyway, my life is at a sort of standstill. no one tags my flobble board, that guy still hasn't replied. he's probably ignoring me. which means my "secret mission" has been delayed (ya know? the one that i've been going crazy over). and no one's updating their blogs often enough, when i'm making a point to update at least once in two days. I guess God's filling up my schedule, giving me new and cool experiences (which i must always remember, be it good or bad, would come in useful in the future, useful in God's plan)
Then again, i haven't been talking to my DG members. I'm not spending enough time on God's Word. I'm not training up for NS. like, it's like, i'm lazy, and i always feel that i should clear my head of all bad motives for training b4 i go train.
Who're my good pals, left to stand? probably Joel, church ppl, my collegue Evonne, dora?... i'm not even sure who my true friends are. but these are the people who've stood by me, so, THANK YOU ALL! and I thank God that he has brought u all into my life. Colin, though not a perfect boss (just like everyone else is not a perfect person), has jump-started my walk with God again. so... thanks you.
SamWise2000 [2/10/2005 06:37:00 AM]
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urgh!
yesterday was the day my cousins came over again. we watched kung fu hustle on VCD. it's my second time, and it still rocks =)
so many thoughts... so many things i forgot... anywayz, there's not much prob now. that guy didn't reply. God put me in a position to help him. like, cuz i experienced what he must be going through now. I won't give up. God has his reasons for allowing me to go through the tortures of... that one.
Sam
SamWise2000 [2/09/2005 05:45:00 PM]
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I'm just gonna rant now, like the scizo i really am...
I'm doing something really bad, it's for the best, but i don't know if i can handle it. either of this could happen: salvation for a total stranger i don't know, or internal psychological mayhem! which shall it be? God, help me! I need opinions too, though u have absolutely no idea what i'm talking about =p care to find out? u sure u want to? u sure u can handle the truth? wanna join the ranks of the crazies? haiz... it's bad, really. he hasn't replied. it's not a good thing. he logged on today. i didn't get a reply, which is really worrying. christian brother to christian brother... do u think he'll understand? I'm venturing into unknown ground, no one has ever tried it b4, i'm probably gonna fail and fall together with him. u think?
eh... watched tv today, and i FINALLY spend some quality time with God :) and we played lots of the games i bought from settlers. it was fun playing with kennie and gary. they actually like "loco"! they like my games! =p
Sam: share the gospel to them.
Sam: sorry, what did u say?
Sam: share the good news, dude.
Sam: u think it's the right time?
Sam: don't ask me, ask God.
SamWise2000 [2/08/2005 06:45:00 AM]
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why, josh1987? why?
Today was the day i woke up to watch Jynx on teen titans (gotta love her =p), play "oddworld: munch's oddysee (not a bad game, really, but not as good as i thought it would be), went to settlers cafe to buy 3 games (yeah! can play during CNY and at leonard's home this sunday), and watched Constantine (good movie plot, heheh, angel Gabriel is funny. and, yar, their wings are cool cool cool! good ending too).
SamWise2000 [2/07/2005 09:04:00 AM]
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Goodbye, Man Fai, see you soon...
another goodbye, as my friend leaves for a holiday in Egypt, and for other more personal reasons...
well, wednesday to friday was training.
Friday: worked from 8pm to 9.30pm
Saturday: they needed me for backup, thus i worked from 2pm to 1.30am. yar, the long hours can be terrible and bone-breaking, arm-cramping (this happened while i was making drinks =p haha, good arm muscle training)... but i liked it. seriously. i'm in love with my job. perhaps it's a passing phase, maybe if i worked long enough, i would find it "xian". but i'll always try and keep a good attitude, no matter how stress i look, cuz I'm doing al this for God =) btw, my boss Colin rox now =p so does Evonne, who's super enthu and has a good atitude, but hardly appreciated by the rest. oh well.
Sunday: the time my boss brought some staff members to his church. cool, right? worked from 1pm to 11pm. had to leave church early. i hope this doesn't have to happen again, cuz Sunday should be the Sabbath =) well, atleast until after 5pm on sunday or something lar... anywayz, ya, got to see the ugliness in some staff members... all thanks to us humans being a fallen race. but we did share some good times playing "manga manga". well, the worst part is, everyone clearly shunned the washign of dishes, only Darren and I seemed to be doing most of it, when that work is supposed to be shared. can't blame them, i guess.
tmrw is a new day, need to recuperate. haha, working at settler s is like having a taste of NS. which is good. Thansk you God for this day.
SamWise2000 [2/06/2005 09:29:00 AM]
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