Yesterday (Monday) was the day I felt kind of depressed, walked down the stairs real slowly and yet twisted my ankle, got real happy about it (hoping that I can skip school for a few days =p), endured tremendous pain when I needed to have it massaged, and hoped I needed to bring clutches to school (which would'v ebeen so cool! always wanted to do that =D). alas, I didn't need clutches the next day.
Today (Tuesday) is the day when I went to class with a whole row to myself. why's the whole class avoiding me?!?!?! *sigh* I realised I should keep my distance from Reena. I couldn't keep myself awake during chinese class when it really counted, and so he got real mad and asked me to finish my compo b4 i leave the sch. of all days, it HAD to be today when I had piano. so, I skipped bio test to finish it. yeah, it ain't the wisest thing to do, but I would have wasted 45 minutes in the LT, cuz I didn't study at all. Yeah, it's very self-destructive behavior (aka E.R. or emotional rampage =p). Guess who I had to meet? Daniel and Hannah Chris. Daniel... yeah, basically we complained alot about JJC (he's about the only guy who's really open and is someone i can lament with =p). God has great timing, me having met Hannah. She's a great source of comfort, wisdom and all. Yeah, she told me that it's not right for me to do all this, that I should be trusting God MUCH more. *sigh* just thinking about that has reminded me to study for Chem and Math tmrw. well, great day eh? =p i'm living on the edge, as usual, but that's about to change... for their sakes... so that I can shine His light! I've got a DUTY.
SamWise2000 [8/26/2003 07:10:00 AM]
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http://www.donghaeng.net/english/duty.htm
a simple link like that can change lives...
I can't believe how much I've taken for granted God's grace and presense in my life, when others are waiting for me to show the way... till Jesus comes *sob* it's so easy to forget why we're working so hard to do all this, the 'struggles' to reach out to classmates, leading the DG, living life as a testimony... I cried uncontrollably when I watched this the very first time, coz of the immense guilt in me, the whirlpool of emotions... it's amazing how many times God's be reminding me of his work. First was the hillsong concert, then the 'newcomers' MTM, sleepover at Joe's place, the GREAT missions conference (where I met Ryan, what a coincidence right? =p met Joel, than Ryan), this website... *sob* waaaaahhhhh! I don't want to forget God!
SamWise2000 [8/24/2003 07:17:00 AM]
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